Friday, September 30, 2011


The end of the week, finally~ and an interesting twist of the usual. Scottie and I got home from work, chilled, skyped with Kate and Hayden, and off to the grocery. It's now 9 and we haven't had dinner yet...probably just to tired. That's okay, the cupboards are not bare, and we are set for quite a while. Merci for a rather slow day, and new duties as a "nurse" doing medical histories. It was FUN and brought me back a long way. I must say I did a fair job..and liked it. Off to relax and read a bit~ lots to do this weekend. I am, the luckiest girl in the world~despite challenges that I face, but those are all part of the journey too~ Merci

Saturday, September 24, 2011

God who makes special days~

Hayden's 1st birthday party was such fun. He enjoyed his friends, big and small, the cards and gifts. The theme was Nautical, baby blues and red..stripes and polka dots. Hayden poked his finger into his "smash" cake, licking his finger after each dip, not really diving in, but tasting and thoroughly enjoying every bite. Proud Mommy & Daddy standing by~ we enjoyed a lovely "Qudoba" lunch, Hayden's favorite!, cupcakes, candy suckers made by Katie & I. Lots of bright Colorado sunshine, happy faces all around..a grand celebration for our grand little grandson. What a gift to have been with Hayden, and his Mommy & Daddy. I know Scottie felt as lucky as I did. Merci~

Friday, September 23, 2011

God of my understanding~

What a wonderful trip to Denver...a cozy window seat where I looked down upon the world passing by. Lights coming on as darkness crept in, the sun sinking behind the clouds casting beautiful colors as far as I could see~ A complete surprise as my first thought of the window seat was dread. It was quiet and cozy, and opened a new world to me. Cities, farmland, streams, hills and mountains all standing still as I passed by overhead. A beautiful feeling~ Merci

Thursday, September 22, 2011

God who loves me~

I've been lately thinking of veering away from photo's that have "Merci" in for my daily gratitude to God, and instead choosing photo's that relate to my day, my frame of reference, and my gratitude as always, to God. For it is he the has me here, after all. As I was checking in for my flight to Denver tonight, I saw that I have a window seat..and was grumbling to myself~ I always have an isle seat! Quickly my thinking changed to how lucky I am to be heading to Denver to see Katie, Ryan, & our little Hayden, to be celebrating Hayden's 1st birthday at his party on Saturday. And, to be with Katie on her 31st birthday, celebrating my little girl's life. That middle seat matters not.. not anymore. Merci God for the blessings of my life. They are immense and immeasurable. I am indeed grateful~ more than I can express.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

God who loves me~

I need to care for myself, for in giving it all away, I'm gone~ It started today~ Merci for your light and teaching.

Happy 1st Birthday Precious LIttle Hayden~

Oh do I remember ONE year ago today when you came into my life~it way amazing, incredibly, and God blessed. Your mommy & daddy were so happy and you have grown so well in their love. I was with your mommy & daddy for 2 weeks before you decided to join us :) and Poppie hopped in the car and drove all the way from Minnesota just to meet you~ I heard you had a fun party tonight with your mommy and daddy, got your sock monkey from Great Papa, you were a little afraid of Maxx at first and I can see why, he is 4 feet tall, but I guess you love him now :) Great Papa will be SO happy!!! Poppie will be with you tomorrow night and I arrive Friday night for you BIG Birthday Party with all your friends on Saturday! I cannot wait to hold you again~ I love you, Grammie

Tuesday, September 20, 2011


What a nice day all in all~ Lunch with my sweetie, dropped him at the airport, then downtown for a county meeting~short and sweet..back home with no stops, to chill. It feels so nice~ God knows just what I need~my garden, cut some shoots, hummers still visiting! Merci Safe travels honey..before you land in Denver with the kid's on Thursday. xo

Monday, September 19, 2011

God who knows what I need~

Gosh~after getting horrible news about my health, Vit D & can that be?, me? I had a topsy turvy start, and as the day went on it became calmer and calmer. Made a nice dinner, enjoyed my sweetie..and spoke to my doctor, George, again. I feel better and will ponder my next moves, literally. It's up to me~ Merci for walking right beside me. It's nice to have someone right beside me without physical presence, but with unquestionable spiritual presence, times 2. Merci, Merci I will move through this as I do~

Sunday, September 18, 2011

God who knows what I need~

Sisters whether by blood or not~are the best. I am SO lucky. Merci

Saturday, September 17, 2011

God who knows what I need~

Merci to the eight women who adopted me~ What a wonderful weekend on the farm~ I;m so fond of each of you!

Friday, September 16, 2011


It feels so good to be home this Friday evening. Work is hard sometimes~ placed a homeless woman at "Home Free" battered woman's shelter upon her return to Minnesota from her mothers funeral in another state, to be followed by treatment, 1/2 way, and housing. Sent a suicidal client to the hospital despite doubts from a staff member about the cycle he is in~ can't care about that..he didn't feel safe and he felt like hurting others and/or himself, plans and all, that might just break the cycle, with proper help. Worked with another young man strung out on IV heroin and cocaine~ so young, so much to learn. Bless them all, each and every one of them, please. The weather has turned, and I had a nice bowl of chili for dinner with my sweetie. Off for "Sisters Weekend" in the morning, early~ This has been one busy month~

Thursday, September 15, 2011

God as I understand him~

Such a sweet little day~ slept hard, worked hard, and played hard...dinner with my sweetie at the Edina Grill~ 2nd night out in a row! What a nice treat. I'm gaining clarity on some things that break my heart, letting go (trying) and leaning on you~ Thank you God for your many blessings.
Rest well~

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

God who knows what I need~

I've used this woman before and she just speaks to me. A beautiful, bright, sunshiny, Minnesota day~ Had my physical and all the things that go along with it~ I am healthy :) Tended my garden and can tell that it knows that days are limited, as they're not thriving as they might. Our three female hummers are enjoying the feeders all to themselves as the "men" have flown south but soon they will follow too. I feel very sad when that day comes and they no longer visit at the window or feeders, but wish them safe travels as they freely fly 1,000 miles or more. Merci for this day~

Monday, September 12, 2011

God who makes special days~ PUT UP LATER!! see scheduled>

Oh sweet little baby, I wonder what you'll be. We'll wait and watch you grow until we can see. Your mommy and daddy and big little brother too, will welcome you with love, care and so much happiness. While Grammie & Poppie will be bursting with joy, right along with you~ Welcome Little Duncan, we wonder what you'll be.

Announcement of Katie & Ryan's 2nd little child, today.
No greater gift than this. Merci~

God who knows me~

Home Sweet Home~ I actually came home last night but wanted to give full measure to 9-11 yesterday. Merci God, for my safety, the love that surrounds me, and for my sweet, sweet husband. I love you, honey~and I know we should be together~

Sunday, September 11, 2011


God Bless all Americans who lost their lives, loved one's, their freedom, and sense of safety. May God forever keep you in his care~

September 11, 2001-September 11, 2011

Saturday, September 10, 2011

God who cares for Hayden, and his Mommy & Daddy

This trip has caused a diversion of my gratitude to prayers for Hayden. I am heading home tomorrow and will miss my little guy so much. As I gave him his last bottle tonight~ he was playing with my bangs with his left hand, then reached up with his right hand and took as much hair as he could gather, and pulled my head to his. Love just shivered throughout my body~the love this little one gives is unmeasurable. We played outside, collected rocks, petals, and plants, and made an art project for his mommy & daddy who were out for dinner. Hayden's surgery did go well, but I underestimated the recovery process~ For him it's been rough...each day a little different, some better, some not, but the nights are tough~ Merci God for the love that surrounds this little guy~ near and far, and for his incredible parents who give him everything he needs. I love you little Hayden, I will miss you, AND, Poppie & I will be back for your 1st Birthday Party!! Your mommy and I made nautical suckers tonight as treats for all your guests. Stay well little buddy. Don't forget to say your prayers. I love you, Grammie

Friday, September 9, 2011

God who cares for Hayden, and his Mommy & Daddy

Baby Hayden continues to heal. The best day so far, long naps, better appetite, and late this afternoon after seeing his doctor he was VERY active and happy~ After bath, kaboom :( he crashed and fell apart. Bless him and keep him~hold him gently, and smother him with love and healing~his mommy, daddy, grammie who is here with him & his poppie who is busy praying from afar. Great Papa too~who eagerly awaits every word of improvement!

homework: Etceteras: twine rope bowl

homework: Etceteras: twine rope bowl

Thursday, September 8, 2011

God who cares for Hayden, and his Mommy & Daddy

Merci for your strength and courage today. Hayden had a rough day~ there must be so much pain and no way of course to talk about it~ He's so tiny and so brave. Hayden and I spent most of today walking, inside, outside, just so he could stand...there was no getting comfortable in a sitting position :( Hayden is a little trooper, and his parents are amazing. He is fast asleep..and hopefully it will last all night~ His mommy and daddy have gone to bed too~ I am blessed to be able to love and care for those I love and care for~

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

God who cares for Hayden, and his Mommy & Daddy

What a day this has been. Thank you God from the bottom of my heart for the steady hands you gave Hayden's surgeon, for his assistant, anesthesiologist, and the entire team that cared for Hayden during his surgery. It was a long day~ and his Mommy & Daddy are resting now, and so is our little Hayden. Thank you~ May he heal quickly and in your time be well, all well.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

God who knows what we need~

Little Hayden is having surgery in the morning. May you bless him and keep him, may you hold him gently in the palm of your hand. His mommy and daddy too~

Monday, September 5, 2011

God who cares for us

On my way to Denver in the morning to see my little grandson Hayden who is having surgery Wednesday~ I can't wait to see him and his Momma & Daddy too! Merci~ Happy Labor Day!

Sunday, September 4, 2011

God who knows what I need~

What a difference a day makes~ Spent a lovely morning with Dad, ran around a bit and had brunch at Lakeshore Grill, just my Daddy & I. Home and off to the track..I broke a summer pattern and lost every race I bet on while Scottie broke a pattern too, and won!! It's very cool, with bright sunshiny skies today~ and at this writing the sun has gone to bed. I am not ready for this, nor for the sound of football murmuring in the background~ I purused the bead classes at a shop I like and plan to sign up soon! That with talk of selling our home should help fill the hours that I'm idle when the snow flies~ God, thank you, for letting me know that if I am still, answers come~ xo

ps I like this photo~ it's the two of us, always together and yet apart~

Saturday, September 3, 2011


Quiet, calm relaxing kind of day~ seems like I wasted precious time just hanging out~ maybe that's okay and not a good time to judge~ lots of thoughts about meaning, change and life. Thank you for your presence, always felt, evermore~

Friday, September 2, 2011

What a wonderful feeling that after 37 years of marriage my sweetie and I still look so forward to a long Labor Day weekend together, alone. Isn't that sort of funny? We had to pass on a quick trip up to Lake Superior, to much going on~ and to much coming up, here and away from home~ So that being said, the crickets are having a riotous time making music~ and the evening is warm and humid. I will hate to have it come to an end~ Merci for a wonderful way to end the week..peace, calm, and crickets :)

Thursday, September 1, 2011

God who understands me~

Could it be that I feel a lifting..a little bit lighter, not so heady. What a crummy feeling I've had~ God of many blessings, thank you for this day, the light & sun, the warmth inside and out, and most of all for my husband~ It goes without saying but with needing to be told that each day is a sweet day with him in my life. Warmth, safety, support, love, pure and simple love..often understated but always, always present~ and felt within. Merci