my thoughts to a friend~
your tears~ it sounds like you have become very attached to my dad. i only wish you could have really known him. he has had a more than extraordinary life and when everything lines up, dad is more than ready to join my mom and sister. i often find myself smiling as i remember things throughout my lifetime with my dad. as well, i find myself in tears wondering how i will live without him so hugely present in my life. we had a remarkable bond. it was one that needed no words and yet everything was acceptable. we shared a love of fishing, as did many of my family members, the outdoors, nature~ water, the ocean, quiet times and lots of laughter and fun. dad is a very complex man and comes with life experiences that have made him feel full and complete. he and mom adored each other. i've had some difficulties with how he treats people at times. i keep thinking that is mine to deal with even tho' i don't like it~ we are imperfect. God loves us anyway and accepts our shortcomings.
don't be sad. life has a beginning and an end...this is how it is to be. i will deeply miss my dad, and i know i will struggle mightily for a time, but i cannot deny him the gift that will be his, everlasting life, and my dear Mom.
be joyful. have great faith. God knows exactly what he's doing.