~~I was sitting outside enjoying this incredibly beautiful day, the sunshine, balmy breezes, even made myself a little swimming pool from an "Idgloo" cooler :), and pondering that I would begin to gauge my days on a 0-10 scale when I post my daily "Merci's" (gratitude) to God each day. It crossed my mind that if God gave me this day, would it be fair to gauge it?, being that I am alive and that should be enough. Should every day be a 10? Upon thinking it over, I don't think God's world is perfect 10, I know there are many things that are not the way he would want them to be, some that can be changed and some that no single person has control over. So those being my thoughts, I think God would want to know how I feel about my days. So I may, or may not post a number along side each day's entry~we'll see how I feel and how I think God feels about it.~~

happy new year

Christmas did come and it did go, and I am relieved. My first Christmas in my whole entire life without my Mom. It was hard and sad and heartbreaking. I don't know what to do without Mom. I don't mean I don't know how to conduct my life, I just mean I don't know how to fill the role of oldest daughter, the position I hold in my family, how to live alone without Mom's love, kisses & hugs, and her support. In time those things will unfold. I'm glad things like these happen slowly.

Love and blessing to my little family, my bigger family, and my friends. I am one lucky girl. I know I am. Thanks to God for the peace, faith, and good direction.